| WELL ON MY LAST POST I WASN'T SUPPOSE TO GO BACK TO THE BAR. BUT I DID. TWICE. BUT HE WAS READY TO PACK HIS THINGS AND HIT THE ROAD. SO I DECIDED I DIDN'T WANT THAT. THAT I LOVE HIM MORE THEN DRINKING AND PARTYING. SO I DIDN'T GO WHEN I'VE HAD THE OPP. TO GO. I'M NOT GONNA SAY THAT THE PULL ISN'T THERE BECUS IT IS. BUT THE LOVE FOR MY HUNNY IS MORE!! WE ARE THINKING ABOUT HAVING ANOTHER BABY. HE WANTS A BOY. MY DAUGHTER IS 13 MONTHS OLD NOW. SHE IS WALKING. WHICH MAKES ME SO PROUD. SHE JUST STARTED WALKING ON THE 8TH WHICH WAS THE DAY SHE TURNED 13 MNTHS. LOL. MY HUSBAND ALSO GOT HIM A 2ND JOB @ WALLY WORLD. HE WANTS TO GET US OUT OF THIS APARTMENT AND INTO A HOME OF OUR OWN. WHICH I WOULDN'T MIND AT ALL. I HAVE BEEN LOOKING AND FOUND SOME. HOPEFULLY I CAN MOVE TO CHATSWORTH. I'M SICK OF DALTON. NEED A CHANGE!! MY SIS. IS MOVING TO C'WORTH. THAT IS IF SHE DECIDES TO STAY W/ HER HUSBAND. THEY HAVE BEEN HAVING SOME PROBLEMS. SO HE IS GOING TO GET A HM IN C'WORTH. I HOPE IT ALL WORKS OUT FOR THEM. THEY BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER. THEY R JUST HAVING A HARD TIME SEEING IT. I BELIEVE WE ALL GET THAT WAY AT ONE TIME OR ANOTHER. BUT IN THE END WE REALLY DO LOVE THE PERSON. WELL I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY. TIL NEXT ENTRY.
LIVE, LOVE, AND LET GO!
LIVE, LOVE, AND GET LUVS!!
DIXIE | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
| Life has been crazy lately. Been getting wasted on the weekends. It's fun I must say. But wow what a mess we can get ourselves into. I had to stop going to the bars. My husband said " If you go back, Then we are over". So I stopped going. Plus when my sister's husband would come she would get mad and fights would happen. Not becus he was checking other women out or anything. It just happened. That is another reason I decided not to go back. Got tired of all the bullshit. My mom is wanting My husband and I to move in w/ her, but I'm not going to. Love being on my own. She needs someone though. but NOT ME!! Don't get me wrong. I love her with all of my heart just don't think I could live with her.
I almost have my car fixed. I am like so without a damn car. Everything keeps happening to 'em. Like going down the interstate @ 70 mph and the hood flies up and busted the windshield on my husbands already beat up pieace of shit. Then mom let me reborrow her van and the damn belt broke. So I am carless. Which sucks. I had my car worked on today but it still needs more work. After paying out $220.00 on it. Now I have to turn around and fork out $165.00 more. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!! Life is punishing me I reckon. Not sure what I have done but Life always does this to me. blah blah blah!!!! I truely hope life is treating you a hell of alot better than it is me. Believe it or not, thru all of it I kinda feel happy. Whew it is COLD in here. Till next time. Stay happy and free.
Live, love, and let go!! or Live, love and get luvs!!
Peace out,
Melissa
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| | Current Music: | SHERYL CROW " I'M A BITCH, I'M A LOVER". | | Subject: | UPDATE.... | | Time: | 03:01 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/achy_sp.gif) anxious |
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| I RECENTLY HAD A B'DAY. JUNE 3RD. I TURNED 29. WOW!! I AM OLD. HEHEH. OH WELL. I WENT TO MY FIRST BAR LAST NITE (WHERE I ACTUALLY STAYED) AND I HAD A BLAST. IT WAS SO FUN. I DANCED AND SANG (AT MY TABLE THE SING PART) LOL. I WANTED TO GET UP THERE ON STAGE WITH THAT GROUP AND JUST SING RIGHT ALONG WITH THEM. HEHEHE MAYBE I SHOULD OF.. I COULDN'T BELIEVE HOW SOME OF THOSE PPL WERE DANCEING. BUT HELL THEY WERE HAVING A WONDERFUL TIME. WHICH IS ALWAYS A GOOD THING. THE ONLY THING WAS MY SISTER GOT TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DRUNK AND STARTED FIGHTING HER HUSBAND AND TRIED TO FIGHT ME BUT I JUST WALKED OFF BECAUSE THAT IS MY SISTER AND I WOULD NEVER WANT TO HURT HER. SHE IS MY BEST FRIEND. HEHEHE UNLESS SHE IS DRINKING. I WILL NEVER GO WITH HER TO A BAR AGAIN........ ALL IN ALL I HAD A FANTASTIC TIME. I WOULD LIKE TO GO BACK NEXT SAT. BUT MORE THAN LIKELY I WON'T BE ABLE TO. BUT OH WELL AT LEAST I CAN SAY THAT I WENT. FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PEACE OUT MY PPL. LOVE TO YOU ALL. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. IT COULD BE YOUR LAST. LIVE, LOVE, AND THEN GET LUVS!!
MELISSA | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | UPDATE | | Time: | 04:47 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/hungry_sp.gif) hungry |
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| ON MY LAST POST I THOUGHT I WAS PREGNANT. WELL I WAS BUT I LOST IT =( MAJOR BUMMER. I WASN'T REALLY READY FOR ANOTHER BABY SO SOON AFTER AMBER BUT I NEVER WANTED TO LOSE SOMETHING SO PRECIOUS. I THOUGHT I WOULD DIE. ACTUALLY I WANTED TO DIE. IT FELT LIKE SOMETHING HAD BEEN RIPPED FROM ME AND LEFT THIS HUGE HOLE INSIDE ME. MADE ME FEEL AS THOUGH IT WAS MY FAULT. THAT I HAD DONE SOMETHING WRONG TO CAUSE THIS. BUT THE DOCTOR SAID THAT IT WASN'T MY FAULT. THIS IS SOMEONE THAT I WILL NEVER GET TO KNOW. THEY TELL ME THAT IT WENT TO HEAVEN BUT I DON'T KNOW. I WAS ONLY 6 WEEKS WHEN IT HAPPENED. I DON'T EVEN THINK THE POOR THING EVEN DEVELOPED VERY MUCH. I WILL ALWAYS WONDER WHAT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN AND MISS IT EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE. BUT IF IT DID GO TO HEAVEN THEN I WILL SEE IT ONE DAY. MY DAD HAS ALREADY MET IT. IF THAT IS TRUE. WHO KNOWS? I DON'T. THE ONLY ONE THAT KNOWS FOR SURE IS JESUS AND I DON'T THINK HE IS TELLING. I DON'T WANT THIS TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN. NEXT TIME I GET PREGNANT IT BETTER BE STAYING THERE FOR A WHILE. WELL THATS ALL I'M GOING TO SAY FOR NOW. I'LL POST LATER.
LOVE YA,
MELISSA | | comments: Leave a comment |
| WELL, LIFE KINDA SUCKS AT THE MOMENT. MY FRIEND THAT WAS 42 SHE PASSED AWAY ABOUT A WEEK AGO. I DIDN'T GO TO THE FUNERAL OR ANYTHING. COULDN'T BRING MYSELF TO GO. NOT SURE IF I CAN EVER GO INTO A FUNERAL HOME AGAIN. SINCE MY DADS FUNERAL.
ANYWAY. MY MOM AND MY SISTER HAVE BEEN SICK. MY SISTER KEEPS HAVING SEIZURES. AND MY MOMS STOMACH HAS BEEN HURTING. I CAN'T STAND ALL THE SICKNESS. I THOUGHT WHEN MY DAD DIED THAT WOULD BE THE END OF IT (SICKNESS) BUT I WAS WRONG. I ALSO HAVE A BROTHER WHO IS A BIG TIME JERK. HE WONT EVEN COME AND VISIT HIS MOTHER. (MICHAEL) HE JUST THINKS THAT HIS WIFE AND KIDS ARE ALL THERE IS IN THIS LIFE. HE MAKES ME VERY UPSET. BUT WHAT CAN U DO. NOTHING. IT WILL BE HIS PROBLEM WHEN SHE IS GONE. HE WILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE HURT AND PAIN, GUILT. BUT KNOWING HIM. HE WON'T FEEL ANYTHING BUT GLADNESS THAT SHE IS GONE. WHICH MAKES ME.. WELL NEVERMIND. JUST A BIG JERK. HE LET HIS FAMILY RUIN MY DADS FUNERAL. AND HAD TO BLAME EVERYONE ELSE BUT THEM. JERK JERK JERK.... OH WELL.
THERE IS ALOT OF THINGS I NEED TO TALK TO GOD ABOUT. BUT FOR SOME REASON I CAN'T PRAY. I'VE NOTICED EVERYTIME I TRY TO PRAY I PRAY FOR MY DAD.. I MEAN LIKE HELLO STUPID HE IS DEAD!!!!!!!!!! SO THEREFORE I JUST DON'T PRAY THAT MUCH. MAN I AM SO DEPRESSED!! BUT THAT ISN'T ANYTHING NEW. WISH PEOPLE WOULD BE GOOD PEOPLE FOR A CHANGE. INSTEAD OF RUNNING THEIR MOUTH ABOUT THINGS. PEOPLE LIKE TO GOSSIP. AND IT ISN'T EVEN TRUE! BUT THEY DO IT ANYWAY. AND THE WORST PART IS. THEY ARE SUPPOSE TO BE "CHRISTIANS". HAHA SOME CHRISTIANS. TO BE CHRISTIAN IS TO BE "CHRIST LIKE" BUT I HAVEN'T SEEN THAT. I'VE NOT READ IN THE BIBLE WHERE JESUS WENT AROUND GOSSIPING. ALL YOU READ IS WHERE HE WENT ABOUT DOING GOOD. HEALING ALL THAT WERE OPPRESSED BY THE DEVIL. SO THEY ARE NOT TRUELY CHRISTIANS. IF THEY WERE THEY WOULD BE LIKE JESUS.
HERE'S SOMETHING ELSE FOR YA TO THINK ABOUT. I MAY BE PREGNANT AGAIN. EXCITING HUH? YEAH MAYBE. JUST GONNA MAKE ME FATTER IF I AM. WHICH I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
BUT U HAVE TO GET THAT WAY TO GET THE BABY OUT HEHEHEHE.
THATS ENOUGH FOR NOW,
MORE LATER,
TAKE CARE BE SAFE.
LOVE,
MELISSA | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I just went to ponders website. Found out that my Aunt's grandson's wife passed away. She was only 23 yrs old with two daughters. That is so sad. Plus what made me sad was looking at the pics of the inside of ponders in calhoun. That is where my dad was. Just brought all that back. Makes me just want to cry. I miss him so much. I thank God everyday that he went to be with the Lord though. He is much better off now. No more pain. =) that makes it a little bit easier. Just wish he could have seen my angel. I know he would have loved her so much. I think she looks like him a little. I have been told that as well.
On a lighter note. I finally got moved. Been here 9 days now. I like it. Way better than where we were. My angel loves it. She sure can get around hehe. She can go fast in her walker hehe. She likes to stay under my feet though. lol. Gotta love that. Plus I found out that my friend Amanda is pregnant. going on 7 weeks. I am so happy for her. She wasnt sure if she would ever have one. She had some problems but hehe I told her she would have one. and haha shes going to .. Does my heart good. She also got engaged christmas. Good things are just happening to her. yeahhhhhh..
Well I am such a typer tonight. lol. Well.. I'll go for now.
Type to ya later,
Melissa | | comments: Leave a comment |
| HOPEFULLY WE WILL BE MOVING THIS WEEKEND! I HAVE A DOCTORS APPT. FRI. 10:30 AM AFTER THAT WE ARE GOING TO GO CHECK OUT THE APTS. AND SEE IF ONE IS AVAILABLE.
WE ALREADY LOOKED AT THEM AND THEY HAD SOME,,, BUT THAT WAS ABOUT A WEEK AGO. IT'S ONE BEDROOM KINDA SMALL. BUT THAT WILL DO UNTIL I GET MY BUSINESS OFF THE GROUND. WWW.FREEWEBS.COM/SUREFIRECLEANING WEBSITE UNDER CONSTRUCTION.
AMBER HAS A DOC. APPT. FRI. AS WELL. SHE WILL GET HER 6 MONTH SHOTS IF SHE GETS BETTER.
SO IF ALL GOES WELL,, WE WILL BE OUTTA HERE SATURDAY. IT WILL PROBABLY TAKE A FEW DAYS TO TRANSFER MY PHONE SO I WON'T BE ON HERE FOR A FEW DAYS OR SO.. =( BUT IT WILL BE FINE. JUST CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE. HEHEHEHEH
I WILL BE CLOSER TO TOWN. THAT IS ALWAYS A PLUS.
I HOPE EVERYONE IS HAVING A GREAT WEEKEND AND WILL HAVE A GREAT WEEK.
TIL NEXT ENTRY
LOVE YA
MELISSA
NOTE TO MY FRIEND::: I MISS YA! JUST IN CASE YOU READ THIS POST. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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 I taste like Bread.
I am a staple in almost everyone's diet. Friends like me are a complement to any other friends I get on with almost everyone, remaining mostly in the background, but providing substance when it would otherwise be lacking. What Flavour Are You?
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You are starch. You are rigid, opinionated, hard-
willed and not too friendly about it. You keep
people out of places, or you keep them in, and
without you a lot of things would collapse.
hopefully you'll never have the authority to
burn people at the stake. Sir. Ma'am.
Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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Your soul is bound to the Second Totem, Luna:
The Wolf.
Luna appears as a pair of coral colored wolves.
She embodies empathy, nurturing, insight,
and warmth. She is associated with the
color coral, the season of spring, and the
element of wind. Her downfall is pathos.
You are most compatible with Doves and Ravens.
Which Animal Spirit Totem Are You?
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| | Current Music: | "Roll with the punches." Jodee Messina | | Subject: | Stand still.... | | Time: | 03:48 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/purple/confused_sp.gif) confused |
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| Well My life at the moment is at a stand still. Not sure which way I need to go.. I'm confused. Thoughts are spinning out of control. I want to live life.. I really don't feel as though I have lived. I'm 28 and It's not what I want it to be. I want MORE!!!!!!!!! Got to have MORE!!!!!!! Can't do this FOREVER. There are so many things in life I want to do. Im afraid if I wait I'll be old and my life will be gone. Then I'll look back and say omg what have I done.. I never lived.. I need to do more. I don't want to be old and look back and wish I had done this or that.. I got to have more out of life.... So I'm gonna grab life by the b@#%s and run. Not gonna look back in disappointment.
My life long dream is to become a big time singer.. I can do it. At least I could give it a h@$% of a shot. Who knows I might even get famous and rich. Now see that is a dream. I want it so bad.. I want so much.. Just wish I could make it happen. Live, love and get luvs... lol Oh well wish it for me eh.?! Maybe it will happen..
I'm outta here for now.
til next time
Love,
Melissa | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today was a kinda boring day.. One of those days you wish you could turn around and it not be there. Well we can't do that now can we? To dang bad.. I found out that one of my friends is dying.. Well I knew she was but I didn't know how close she was.. It's a matter of days I was told.. She is like 42 yrs. old. She has a good heart. I hope to go visit her soon b4 the big day happens.. Makes me freakin sad and depressed. I hate the way things have to be. Most of all I hate cancer.. That is what she has.. Let me tell you, It is killing lots of people.. It pays to be good to urself. Well that is the update. Not good, but that is how life is. NOT GOOD!!!!! Well, most of the time anyway..
Til next entry.
Stay safe.
be good to one another.
LOVE,
Melissa | | comments: Leave a comment |
| WELL SO FAR SO GOOD ON THE HOME FRONT.. ANDY CAME HOME. THE OTHER MORNING, WE ARE GETTING ALONG.. THINGS ARE GOOD. MY ANGEL SHE IS FINE. GROWING LIKE A WEED.. DEC. 8TH SHE'LL BE 5 MONTHS OLD. BIG GIRL. SHE IS MY LIFE. WITHOUT HER I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING.
TIL NEXT ENTRY.
PEACE OUT.
MELISSA | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I HAD A PRETTY OK DAY.. ME, MY MOM AND MY SISTER WENT TO THIS MANS HOUSE (WHO IS SICK).. WITH SOME OF THE PEOPLE WE GO TO CHURCH WITH... I PLAYED THE BASS AND MY SISTER PLAYED THE GUITAR.. WE HAD A HOUSE MEETING FOR HIM.. IT WAS GOOD... THEY PRAYED FOR THE MAN AND HE ACTUALLY STOOD UP OUT OF THE BED FOR A LITTLE WHILE.. WHICH HIS WIFE SAID HE HADN'T DONE THAT IN A LONG TIME.. THAT WAS JUST AWESOME...
NOT SURE IF MY HUSBAND IS COMING HOME TONIGHT. I TOLD HIM NOT TOO.. HE DOESN'T GET OFF WORK UNTIL 4:30 AM SO WE WILL SEE.. ALL I KNOW IS HE BETTER NOT.. AT LEAST NOT RIGHT NOW.. UNTIL THINGS GET STRAIGHT WITH HIM... (AND ME)
LOVE TO ALL..
HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY.
MAY GOD BLESS ALL
LATER,
MELISSA | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Well, There have been a halt in my plans.. Looks like a seperation is in order.. (my husband and I) He is leaving today. For reasons that I won't mention on here. It's not my fault I will tell you that much.. Not sure for how long.. but I'm starting off with a week... Then we will go from there. So life sucks for me at the moment.. I know it will get better. There is a rainbow after the storm.. So there will be one for me. (I hope)I'm very dissapointed in my husband..
MOre later
Melissa | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Today was, as I told u yesterday, my moms birthday. Wow! What a disaster. Ok.. Our church took her to Western Sizzlin. Well.. We hadn't been there long. At our table after we ordered My sister faints onto the floor. Wow!! Scared us to death... She wouldn't wake for nothing. An ice rag, Water in the face, Mom slapping her,,,NOTHING!!! but when the ambulance got there she fought them.. I know! Thats not good.. But she finally calmed down.. at the e.r. She is ok.. Nothing was "wrong" with her. Except her nerves...and stress... so my moms b'day was ruined... but we are going to make it up monday. Which I'm sure she will "approve"!!
Man I am so freakin stupid... I upset people unintentional. ( however u spell it ) I sorry..
Til Next entry.
Stay safe.
Melissa | | comments: Leave a comment |
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